…or why love has to be likely?
This is not a blog about being in love, yet. This is a blog about spending time with someone that is incredibly special to you. This is a blog about the image of that person and yourself not making sense to society. This is a blog about how I truly am a walking conundrum and I don’t care.
- a confusing and difficult problem or question.
- a question asked for amusement, typically one with a pun in its answer; a riddle.
I think for a majority of my life it really did bother me what other people though of the person I was involved with. I never looked for someone that matched me in aesthetics or personality. I looked for someone that met me in terms of heart.
There is something attractive about the sexual orientation of Pansexuality. I have embraced this lable to the fullest. I never felt comfortable being straight, gay, or bisexual. I would rather fall in love with personality. Half the joy of falling in love is finding the secret hidden behind the person’s eyes. The person that is inside them, their thoughts, their passions, and so much more.
It’s one of the reasons that I feel in love with Diane Arbus’ work. She could capture, what some would call (and what some would not), the soul of the person. I can’t imagine life where my focus were only on the way someone dresses, weighs, does their hair, or overall looks.
I’m here now to say that I no longer allow society to define for me whom I should love. Why would I assume anyone else knows my heart, mind, and soul. Who are they to know what I yearn for? I yearn for someone that inspires me. I yearn for someone that makes me laugh and cry by sharing experiences with. I want unconditional love, strong passion, and ambition that stretches miles.
Today I was told that someone I care about and myself make an “unlikely pairing.” I thought about it for a while trying to see if in fact we were an unlikely pairing. I am truly inspired by this person. He has passion in what he does and I think that is incredibly sexy. We laugh together and we complement each other. I love the aesthetic that we make as a pairing and I don’t understand how nobody else does.
There is a breeze out in the world and it’s bringing awareness. We can start changing the tides by being with people we truly want to be with. Doing this without care of what people think. It’s our lives not theirs. Lets live them.