Subtle

I suppose that there is some kind of skill set that I wasn’t born with or every honed for myself in which people practice being subtle. I am not subtle. I am loud and in your face. I am a load of passion mixed with unmanaged enthusiasm. I am the girl your parents warned you about.

Why? Because we are taught not to defend ourselves. We are taught to fake it till we make it. We are taught that that is the way it is. Every jobs sucks, people are always going to be mean, your professor will always be unfair to you, and the person you are is not the person people want to see.

Well, sorry folks, for some strange reason I was gifted with the ability to defend injustices as I see them. I spent a lot of my formative years in detention as a result. I have a few close knit friendships rather then an abundance of acquaintances. I will not allow someone to treat me as less then I am. I fight tooth and nail for the education I receive. I write letters to deans and encourage students to fight for better education as well. I admire the professors that are strict and intellectual rather then the ones that provide “easy A’s.” And these same personality traits are exemplified in my work place.

I do not accept less. I expect more.

 

Waving your Freak Flag

As a senior in college I often have to wonder why I am going to classes with infant children. If I hear phrases like “You are such a freak, overtime you open your mouth I just wish you would shut up.” This is honestly the most ridiculous commentary I’ve ever heard said about me in my academic career thus far.

I think whats pretty fantastic about myself is that I respect the opinions of my professors not my fellow classmates. As a nontraditional student I don’t need to accept these juvenile kids’ opinions of me. Frankly, they do make fun of me for respecting my professors opinion, and I don’t give a literal shit.

I suffered an immense amount social anxiety when I started college. I spent that year killing myself out of extreme fear. When I started to overcome my anxiety, due to the help of two wonderful people, I never wanted to go back again. When I hear things such as the comment mentioned above I worry about the damage that could have caused to me a few months prior.

When I am in college to be a psychologist I really really worry that my fellow classmates are a little off kilter with what their future hopes and plan are. If you can’t even me aware enough of the damage you could cause amongst your fellow classmates how will you be aware of your clients.

I just need to remember that I am going to do better things with my life then hurting other people. I am changing this world.

I think that one thing feminists need to take into account is human faillings. Every human being is likely to fail at something or other at some point in time. Life is full of times like these. Since I’ve recently become extremely active in my participation in promoting feminism I wish to have foriveness in my failings. I think it is often hard to remain passionate about something when people are constantly belittling every action that you’ve ever made. 

Feminists have a huge amount of backlash from many people and a huge amount of backlash from other woman within. Isn’t it time we give ourselves a break and start working together to maintain the equal rights for all? I am extremely against Apathy but that does not mean that I am all for blind ambition. Please be able to forgive others and always seek out more infromation and knowledge along the way.